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Why I Left My Life in New York

So… WHERE IN THE WORLD AM I & what exactly have I been up to??! I know I made a post when I first got to this mystical place, explaining that I was making a “big change” & listening to my intuition (which said, “get the heck out of city life and take a risk!” haha). But I also know that post was quite vague, and I’ve been a bit hush hush ever since… because the truth is, I’m still figuring it out myself. That’s the strange part about social media. So much of what I do is rational and well thought out, like making self-healing info/research accessible, and designing products that I’m passionate about. Yet what got me here, to this place where I consider you guys my friends and we trust each other, is completely irrational: it’s because I’ve been vulnerable and shared my life, journey & struggles as well.

If I could, I would share my entire diary with you because there’s no better feeling than hearing you say you’re going through the same things and you truly UNDERSTAND me. You guys are my people and I mean that (who else can I talk about parasites with?!) But sometimes, when my life is changing fast and I’m trying to process it myself, it’s easier to write about it in past tense rather than while I’m in the thick of it.

Perhaps I should start at the beginning… phew, are you prepared for a novel?! Buckle your seatbelts because you know your girl can ramble (but I promise it will be worth it).

After ‘waking up’ so to speak around 2012, Nick and I ditched GMOs, stopped relying on a broken/corrupt system and found the power of natural medicine. That was when I first began HEALING my body from the diagnoses and pharmaceuticals doctors said I would be on for life.

For those of you who have been here from the jump, you know that this was when my life changed forever. I met like-minds on social media and started my website where I shared the information/remedies that healed me (and that I KNEW would heal others too). Information that has been systematically kept from us for the interest of corporate profit, but I won’t go too far on my views regarding conspiracies because I get a little wild haha!

At that point, barely a sophomore in college, I had 3 full time jobs: writing/working on my passion (Organic Olivia), getting my degree, and my actual hourly job that made ends meet. Over the next few years, thanks to all of you (and blood + sweat + tears), my dream came true. OO became a bonafide company, making important products and sharing info that has had a true impact on peoples’ lives. When readers started writing me about how I helped them overcome a health obstacle or symptom, I thought: THIS IS IT! I’ve reached the pinnacle! I’m actually making a difference in the world. All I have to do is keep this up forever… what could go wrong?! Guuuuuuurl.

After many breakdowns & sleepless nights, I finally graduated which made my parents very happy. What made ME happy though was my work, which I lived and breathed every moment of the day. I had no idea what being an entrepreneur would take out of me, because that was never my goal – it was simply a means to an end (with the “end” being me fulfilling what I feel is my purpose in this lifetime).

I thought the workload would get easier after college, but things only continued growing. Don’t get me wrong – it has been the biggest blessing and I thank God every morning when I open my eyes. But it has also been the hardest thing I’ve ever done. It pushes you to your limits, it makes you cry. It isolates you from your friends and family… but yourself the most. A lot of my loved ones didn’t understand at first why I couldn’t always visit anymore. No one tells you that you have to put in 100 hours for yourself if you don’t put in 40 for someone else. I had to be available to troubleshoot, learn, write, manage, create, and communicate with customers 24/7 – to the point where my work has almost become my identity. When something goes wrong I take it personally, and it’s been hard for me to remember that OLIVIA is a real human separate from Organic Olivia, even as transparent and raw as I strive to be. There’s still a complex being here that feels, bleeds, and has needs. It’s weird navigating how to draw lines, it’s almost impossible to separate work and home life, and I don’t know how Nick has put up with me all these years. I don’t think I would have.

It’s hard for me to have compassion for myself. It’s hard to remember that I’m still only 23, because it feels like I’m a 50 year old man working in a skyscraper that needs to play some damn golf to get my blood pressure down! It’s hard to figure out how to have ‘fun’ since my mind is always ticking. Sometimes I don’t know who I AM anymore since so much of my life is my work and I take it all so seriously. It’s because my job, my livelihood, and my team’s livelihoods fall on me now – and I still haven’t figured out how to balance that weight on my shoulders.

I started all of this for my love of HEALTH. Yet the stress that was flooding into my life was anything but healthy. Everything I preach, love, and believe in – like spending time in nature and taking time to DISCONNECT from technology, was not being achieved with my current workstyle and lifestyle – “style” being the key word when we talk about what I changed.

And yet somewhere, deep down… I knew that the ‘weight’ on my shoulders I just mentioned was STILL not a burden, no matter how heavy it felt. It was and has always been a gift. I am so lucky, SO incredibly blessed to be able to do something that I love. That is not the problem at all, so I needed to change the WAY I was doing things instead. I needed to take a risk and add BALANCE to my life, even if the way I had to go about achieving that balance was extreme.

After visiting Costa Rica in January and being in such a natural environment, around such happy people, who use and need so much less than we do in the states… I realized that I too deserved to be that happy. And I COULD be that happy, with a few tweaks of course. Being back in New York, it felt silly leaving a full day at the office only to go home to an apartment surrounded by concrete (that I was paying a premium for just to be close to the city!) I wanted something money couldn’t buy – the peace and love that only Mother Earth brings. I wanted to PRACTICE what I preach. I wanted to work better and harder because I’m joyful and have extra energy to give others, not because I’m forcing myself to “get shit done.” I never realized how much I glorified being busy, something that was ingrained in my mind at a young age.

Still I trucked on, and the first Monday back from our trip Nick and I woke up and got ready to head to work as usual. Suddenly, we got a call that our office was on fire. As in literal, full on flames. If that wasn’t a sign, I don’t know what is!

The fire stopped THREE windows before us. Three. It took out an entire wing of the building before sparing ours. The lesson I gained that day is that EVERYTHING in life is temporary, down to the office that represented the very thing I was taking so seriously and stressing myself out over: my work. The truth is that my business could fail tomorrow. I could be hit by a bus full of nuns next Tuesday. I could catch a deadly bacteria from the taco stand at the Farmer’s Market. We think we have control, but we never, ever will. And that is where the beauty lies: we are free as soon as we remove our own restraints.

That day I decided: Just because I have a lot on my plate, doesn’t mean that I can’t be young, free, and adventurous. I don’t have to stop living or taking risks just because I had to grow up fast in terms of my career (and in fact I CAN take risks BECAUSE of the blessings I’ve received in my career. It’s all about perspective). I can’t let fear OR stress consume me, I have to listen to my heart and experience the world while I still have the chance to. One day I’m going to WANT to be rooted so that I can have a family of my own and take care of my parents who will need me sooner than I realize. They had me at a late age and I see them getting older before my eyes. I want to be there for them when they need it, so I have to be here for myself now.

I asked myself, what would I do if I had no money, no responsibilities, no cares in the world? What would I do if I truly ’felt free?’ I would travel the world and sleep on couches. I would venture out into pockets of wildlife where I can see lizards and toucans up close, I would dive into waterfalls and I would eat fresh local cuisine with new friends that don’t speak my language. I thought, the only reason I’m not doing that right this minute is because I don’t “feel” free… so I made the choice in that moment to be released from my own mental limits. We ARE free, we were born free, and we should live as though we are. (And in my experience, when you make the choice to do that, doors somehow ALWAYS open for you even when it seems impossible. Call it chance or even magic, but I prefer some good ‘ol divine intervention).

Although my business is a very important part of my life (and on a deeper level my spiritual purpose), I can’t let myself get so sucked into it. My choice to travel may not be everyone’s idea of “freedom” or “balance,” but that’s what it is to me. If nature and exploration will make my work feel more balanced & manageable – if it is important for my health, both physical and mental – and if it’s what my soul is calling out for, then I should AT LEAST give it a try. I hate to be that guy but YOLO, right? We all wanted to take that “year off after college to backpack”… well I decided that this is my year. If you don’t take your own dreams seriously, who will?

The very night of that fateful fire, I began looking at flights. I looked around at an apartment that suddenly no longer felt like my own. I glanced at the pile of “stuff” in my closet and thought, why the fuck did I buy any of it in the first place? I was metaphorically filling the circular void of experience with ‘things’ that were shaped like squares – wondering why they never quite fit. I pack-ratted to make up for what was missing, but never even made a dent. (Seriously, how the hell did Amazon not stop my tab after 5 drinks—-er, himalayan salt lamps?)

When I thought about it, I had already been wanting to leave my apartment for ages to begin with. I’m talking since the *DAY* I moved in. I was so uncommitted in fact that I built my furniture out of cinderblocks and wooden slabs. Including my bed. Ow. Best believe I got some snarky comments on Instagram for that one insulting my garbage-chic eye for design! So why was I staying in a place that never resonated with me in the first place? Because it was “the best deal I was going to get in the area” so I had to settle? Because it provided me with a sense of security? Because I was comfortable, and used to it, and didn’t feel like growing out of my shell? There I go again thinking I have control – I’m realizing that’s a biiiiig theme in my life. You don’t choose when you grow (and you can’t stop it either)… it just has a way of happening.

If the people on those tiny house documentaries could do it, I could do it. If all the ‘crazy hippies’ that have way-too-heavy backpacks, dirty feet, but huge smiles could do it, so could I (and I mean that in the nicest way possible because I’m one of you!)

And so I did.

Within a week, I found the rental of my dreams through a real estate agent (for an actual monthly rental price, not spiked hotel prices or even airbnb prices. We got a local place for a local price on a local street with kids playing and riding their bikes). A few days later, our flights were booked. And once everything was finalized, we gave our landlord the news: we will be out in 30 days. Thank you for everything but we need some sand and sea (and some windows facing the front of the house would be nice LOL – our apartment was attic style!)

We didn’t know our exact plans, and quite frankly, we still don’t. We did not move to Costa Rica, and we are still residents of good old New York, USA. But for right now, for these two months, we are TRYING something different. We are finding out who we are, and what makes us happy. We’re figuring out where we want to live, what climate we like, what part of the world feels good. I don’t believe that just because you’re born somewhere you have to stay forever. We’re learning how much time in nature we need to not pull our hair out, how to make friends in a place that’s completely out of our comfort zone, and how to rid ourselves of stress while still maintaining a work balance – thanks to this terrible Costa Rican wifi! At least it’s something, though. (I appreciate you now Optimum, after all the times I threatened to switch to Fios!)

Our “official” plan is to live here for these 2 months, then return to New York for a bit to check on the office and business, thennnnn continue our travels at our next destinations for a month or two each. That way we can really “live” in each place for at least 30 days – get a feel for how it is to be a local and work/play/eat/love there. That’s why we left our apartment, because we didn’t want to be tied down… we wanted the freedom to really take that full “year after college” I was talking about.

And yet, what I keep coming back to still rings true. There is no such thing as a “plan.” God laughs when we make plans, I heard that one recently and had a good chuckle. Who knows if we will get unbearably homesick after these 2 months and end up going back to a new apartment in New York immediately? Nick REALLY misses his family and friends, so that’s a definite possibility. Who knows if we’ll end up moving to Costa Rica one day for good? Who knows if we’ll finish out the full “year of travel” and live in Amsterdam, India, Peru, and Indonesia like I’ve dreamed up in my mind? I don’t know, and it’s scary, so I guess that’s why I’m getting it all out here. Because at the end of the day, you guys understand and support me, which has been the one constant in my life through these years of ups and downs.

So I guess that’s your answer, huh? We didn’t move away from New York, but for the moment we’re not so stationary. We’re taking it day by day, week by week, and this experience so far has already forced me to get to know myself the way I prayed it would. Some of it has hurt like hell, especially when I had to see how much I was neglecting my home/relationship/family life in lieu of my work and my iPhone. That, I’m working on daily, and I have the solitude of the mountains to thank.

I also wanted to note that I’m well aware this isn’t a “normal” thing. It’s a privilege, it’s insane. That’s why I’ve written this bloody 6,000 word college essay explaining said insanity. I’m not telling you to go quit your job and travel the world just because it’s what I vibe with. You do your own thing and find YOUR dream – that’s what I want for everyone. It’s not easy to pick up and be ‘free’ when you’re in the corporate world or have a classic 9-5, and trust me, I’m working on that in my plans for world domination. (Just kidding, but not really?)

My point is that I hope you find freedom in your own way, as scary as it may be. Maybe your freedom comes from leaving a toxic relationship, or maybe your it comes from finally deciding to STOP dieting and love your beautiful body the way it is. Remember what I said – FEELING free happens in your own mind. You make the choice to remove the mental restraints. You can do anything you want and I truly fucking mean that. I see you, I love you, keep going!!! Pura Vida from Costa Rica

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80 Comments

  1. AR says:

    So proud of you!

  2. Heather says:

    I love and resonate with you SO much! You’re amazing, thank you for sharing. Safe travels and positive vibes!

  3. Nancy says:

    My god Olivia ,

    I have no words but to say you are an amazing woman . The world is a better place for having a human being like you .
    Good luck in your adventures. I wish to one day be as courageous as you and Nick. Lots of love sent your way.

    • Olivia says:

      Nancy, thank you so very much for your kind words <3 You are a beautiful soul. I'm honored to be able to connect with you. Thank you again from me and Nick!!

  4. Taryn Hall says:

    I am so happy that you took this leap and are chasing your balance! I completely understand how you feel and have been going through some of the same things. Thank you for the encouragement! None of us are in this alone. 😊 We see you. We love you!

  5. neva says:

    I literally cried with joy for you and at the same time was so inspired by your move I rank you so much for sharing .

  6. laura says:

    pure love!!

  7. Marc says:

    Olivia, this was a tremendously refreshing read. I live in Manuel Antonio, Costa Rica full time and operate a vegan, organic, gluten free food company. We came here for vacation years ago and fell in love with the lifestyle and the opportunities to volunteer to help others.. My wife have benefitted so much from your work and we’d love to meet you. If you’re ever in the area, please let us know.

    • Olivia says:

      OH MY GOODNESS. Are you the incredible masterminds that made the quinoa bowl I ate right outside of Manuel Antonio National Park?! I was starving and couldn’t find healthy food anywhere. Then suddenly I saw a sign for quinoa and they brought out your creation (with that fabulous tahini dressing). How insane that you read my blog! Forgive me because my mind is blown 🙂 We would LOVE to meet you too! I will be around Manuel Antonio in less than 2 weeks when I pick up my friends from Quepos. Shoot me an e-mail at oamitrano @ g mail . com (spaced out to avoid robots haha). <3

      • Tiana says:

        (Hi. Marc’s wife here) Reading your experience was great. Truly. I’m excited for you both! Taking a leap like this definitely shows you tons about yourself; it’s scary and painful but I think growth usually is. We’ve been here 8 months and I still have a point in almost every day of wanting to run back “home” to everything familiar. But I remember the deception of nostalgia and that I had struggles there too. So I press forward and grow and try to soak all this up and not take it for granted <3 Look forward to meeting you soon!!!

  8. Zaira says:

    Olivia, I just started following u and I’m already in love with all ur work. This blog could not come at a better time in my life. THANK U SO MUCH! I’m making changes in my life and everything you wrote hit home. I thank u and appreciate you! Can’t wait to see what else comes from this trip for you And hope u continue to share with us.

    • Olivia says:

      Thank you so much Zaira. Thank you for reading, for connecting, and for being present w me here ♡ You’re amazing and I will absolutely continue to share.

  9. Rachel says:

    What about all your belongings? Your car? Did you have to sell everything? Was it difficult to part with?

  10. Elaine says:

    Thanks for sharing:. I’m working super hard right now to put my kids through college. But I told them that as soon as they are off to college. I going on a sabbatical and traveling the world for a year. Theee response? ” Mom don’t be hitchhiking and end up in someone’s trunk.”

  11. Christianooh says:

    Beautifully put Olivia 🙂
    It’s refreshing to read about you and Nick just living and seeing where it takes you.
    You’ve been through a lot and have transformed your life in a way that uplifts others. For that you truly deserve every moment of peace and freedom.
    Pura vida is right hahaha 😁
    Blessings and hope to see you guys one day soon,
    Tu amigo
    Christianooh

  12. Gina says:

    You made me tear up. Reminds me why I’m thankful every day for the choices I’ve made and look forward to a future for myself made by me – ur just proof that it truly happens.

  13. Thank you for sharing your experience.
    Wishing you love, happiness, peace & blessings on your path. You’re Beautiful !

  14. Alejandra Larios says:

    Seriously LOVE! Best wishes

  15. Laura Weiss says:

    Good for you sweetheart! Enjoy yourself, you certainly deserve it! But definitely come back the world does need you❤

  16. Maryam says:

    Oh my God Olivia you are blessed really.. masha Allah may He always keep you blessed like this Ameen.. you have a purpose and your fulfilling it and keep doing what your doing offcourse haha..

  17. Erica says:

    Wow. I’m about to graduate this May and have had this itch to travel..alone as scary as it may be, because that’s the only way I think I’ll feel free. I think about it every day. Ive been telling myself not to buy unnecessary materialistic things because I want to travel. And then I stress out that if I don’t get a job straight out of college it’ll be hard to find one if I’m traveling the world for a year (so casual). But I feel like if i dont do it ill regret it when im older. And like you said… YOLO lol. Reading this felt like a sign. And reading this made me feel safe for wanting to go do this. I hope living in Costa Rica is everything you hope for and more! Much love xo

  18. Nicole says:

    Thank you for writing this!! So many of your posts and vlogs speak to me and what I am going through in my life, even if youve posted them years ago, I somehow magically click on something of yours that always deeply resonates with my life – and this is exactly what I needed to read right now! I am also struggling a lot with balance and am heading off to a different country on search of a personal journey. I hope you and nick find what you’re looking for! I am excited to read about your experiences <3 sending you both love and positive vibes!

  19. Ané kamper borup says:

    Ive have just read your post, and you are SO RIGHT!!!! I admire you for doing this! It’s so inspiring ♥
    I also feel a deep urge to live in the nature and get rid of all that dead stuff. I feel so strongly that the society is very unhealthy and that I don’t belong… Everybody praise money and expensive brands, which sometimes seems to be the only thing on their mind… To me it’s dead things, and sometimes I look around in my apartment and think: this is so weird.. Living in a tiny box surrounded with all these dead things… ” I don’t feel that I belong. 😟
    But I have no money and a son who is 8 years, so I guess that this is my obstacles… My time is not now… I have to wait a little longer… When my son is older, maybe we can go 😉
    This was about me, and i couldnt help it – its only because i feel your words so strongly! I really understand you ♥
    I wish you so much happiness and joy and succes (personal) on this journey. You are an amazing inspiration and woman and i love to follow you on instagram 😃 actually this time i had to continue reading on your blog, you really caught me 😂
    Love from a girl from denmark 👌♥

    Ps i can really recommend sweden/norway as a place to find peace in nature… Its so beautiful there with lots of forest and mountains and lakes 😍 and its easy to rent a nice authentic cabbin in the woods..

    The best wishes 🍀♥

    P’s how do you feel / think about numerology? I feel I have to change my name, not because of this, but my feel about my name… The energies in it and around it…

  20. Doug LoBasso says:

    👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

    P.S. MIS YOU GUYS DEARLY! Glad to hear you are doing well!

  21. Maeva says:

    I felt every words you wrote. Thank you for sharing. Im stil trying to live a life that suits me.
    Much love.

  22. Ano says:

    So proud and happy for you and Nick ! Enjoy it
    . Live your dream.
    Also “Seriously, how the hell did Amazon not stop my tab after 5 drinks—-er, himalayan salt lamps?)” so funny and true :/ !!

  23. Deanna says:

    Love this. We only have 1 life!

  24. K says:

    We don’t know each other, but I’m sooo proud of you!!! The better you get at listening to your intuition, the more tests you receive. Self care is crucial to growth. Learning that balance in today’s society is hella hard, but worth it. Good luck on your travels and remember all the answers are within. ☀️💜

  25. Season says:

    Thank you for following your dreams. It makes my heart happy to see you so happy! Life is about taking risks and seeing if it will work.

  26. Imari says:

    As I was reading this It took me back to the Eat. Pray. Love movie. God bless you and your boyfriend. That movie is the reason why I started traveling at your age now. I’m almost 27 and I put it out to the universes that I will take 3 big trips a year and so far it’s been that way since I was 23.

  27. Megan says:

    I have never resonated with something so much in my life. I too am 23, and have been having these feelings for a few months now. I have recently brought up building a school and becoming a volunteer teacher in Tanzania, and let me tell you, my family was less than impressed. I have so much trouble living in a world that glorifies money. I’m not irrational, I understand we need it, but to ask me to not be who I am or to not feed the fire in my soul seems crazy to me.

    I just don’t know how to be myself and become the person I envision being, but also keep my family happy. Is it horrible of me to not listen to anything they say and work on myself the way I know my body and soul need? Or do you follow their device and risk being miserable or feeling stuck?

    So many existential questions, so little time.

  28. Lerissa says:

    You are such an inspiration and have been for me for years. With the crazy world and country we are in today, it’s so nice to know that there is still good in the world. Thank you for always sharing your experiences. This is exactly what I needed to read this morning. You’re an amazing person. (If you did dominate the world – or even just the USA -, we’d be in a happier place!!) Keep doing you, boo! You’ve helped us all through chapters of our lives, we’d want nothing more than to see you happy. Thanks, Olivia. Bless you and Nick for the vibes you put out to the universe and all of your fans.

  29. Darla says:

    ❤❤❤ I’ve been quietly following you for years girl.
    I went through a divorce in 20o9 and moved to Costa Rica for two months to regroup myself. An encounter with a sexy tour guide with land and a vision and now I live here in Costa Rica in the highlands (10,000 ft!) on an organic farm and, along with his family, we run an eco lodge and we have two little boys. Would I have moved to Costa Rica without having met him? Probably not. But Costa Rica heals hearts and bodies and I’m proud of you for taking care of yourself. We have a lot of friends in the las tumbas/tinamaste area and you are welcome here anytime. ❤ lasvueltaslodge.com and my site is thecopperscarab.com

  30. Jadranka says:

    Olivia you are truly an amazing person and I am so happy for you that you found your passion and calling at this early age! Consider yourself lucky because not many people are able to to that.
    Also, I give you ” high five” for trying something new. Moving to a different country takes a lot of guts, but you did it, and this may not be good for you or it will be great, but you never know until you try. Right?! 🙂
    I hope you enjoy your journey whatever it brings… You are truly proof to all of your followers that if you put your mind to it anything is possible!
    I wish you all the best Olivia and I hope you find your perfect place where you want to live.

  31. Claire says:

    Amazing, so inspirational! So proud of you!

  32. Lauren says:

    This is inspiring and beautifully written. I really admire your honesty and I don’t think it’s an accident this article/blog post found me today. I wish you the best of luck in all your travels and wherever your journey takes you from here.

  33. Lina says:

    Thank you Omicia and I deeply meant that world. You make me feel like I am not alone in this world; I still have to figure out many things but you open your heart and all your words are opening ny mind…

    ❤️ And all the Best

    Lina

  34. Lina says:

    Sorry I type so fast and full of excitement that I missspell your beautiful name, Olivia 🙈😊

  35. Heather says:

    Stumbled on your Instagram a few weeks ago and now reading this post has me in tears. Good tears! Full of inspiration and light. You are amazing and motivating! Thank you! All of the vibes for everything you choose to do in your life ♡♡

  36. Mashiell Minaya says:

    Oh Livs you’re such an inspiration every single day. You give me different outlooks and perspectives. I love everything you’ve done throughout the years. You and Nick are awesome. God bless you guys! Seriously I pray he keeps giving you everything you may need to keep touching the lives of many others. Love you! ♥️

  37. Allyson Scalora says:

    You are amazing! I am a divorced mother of two, a nurse and trying to leave a relationship I’m not 1000% happy in. Your words…remove the mental restraints… Just gave me the strength I need to do this. Thank you for being vulnerable and so honest….you rock!!

  38. Deannah says:

    you ARE a life changer.
    So proud of you for being you – and not being afraid of it. You’re so with it girl, I <333333 you !

    & THANK YOU. xo

  39. Ashlae says:

    Thank you…this was EVERYTHING right now! Be encouraged Olivia. You are doing the right thing. Everything in my soul is in agreement with what you said about being free and finding YOU. I pray that I will be able to do the same. You are a blessing. You have inspired me on numerous occasions more than you could ever know. Thank you❤️

  40. Robert says:

    Thanks for that. I’ve been thinking about picking up and heading to Peru on a spiritual journey of sorts and yesterday a feiend told me about her travels to Thailand and your blog is the first thing i read the following day. I’ve been working on getting -debt- free from the system before i can up and leave. That will no longer be an excuse if i can only spend 2 weeks in the jungle at a time till debts are gone so be it.. Thank you for sharing that. Guidance Protection Knowledge Wisdom Health Strength be with you always

  41. Laura says:

    Sooo proud of you!!! You took another risk and did the opposite of what most people do today. We all feel stuck and keep being stuck but you went for it, for you, for your sanity and happiness and that is so freeing. Don’t ever change and who cares who thinks this freedom is unattainable. You made it happen because you worked hard and listened to your heart. Love reading your blogs. Real and true.
    Laura

  42. Kimberly says:

    I LOVE what you wrote and I just “happened” to read it at a much needed moment. 🙂 I wish you the very sweetest life has to offer in your adventure and healing process. I know this will be good for your soul!

  43. Nita says:

    I absolutely love this! It’s my dream to travel the world and be free. I wish for you guys to be happy, where ever you are!❤️

  44. Melanie says:

    Im so happy that you have started this new adventure! No matter what anyone says do you! Like you said only when we truly let go of mental restraints will we truly be happy. And if this makes you happy then nothing else matters!

    I hope to embark on an adventure like this in the future as well. Thank you for always encouraging us to do what’s best for us and to follow our hearts.

    Lots of love from CT ♡

  45. Maria says:

    This is exactly what I needed to read. Thank you! Lots of love from Miami! 🙂

  46. Flores says:

    Holy 💩 Olivia! Wow. You (and Nick) amaze me, inspire me…I am sending so much love and hugs and thanks for being so open and honest and vulnerable! I love and appreciate you for it. Safe travels and take care!

  47. Mariam says:

    Man do I feel this sister! I’ve been living abroad for the last 3 years and now I’m back state side trying to organize and plan for the next big trip. Long story short I’m super excited for u to embark on this new journey for yourself. I also really appreciate u sharing your story because I also am so devoted to work and feel guilty for calling in sick even when I know I need to take care of myself first. So reading this reassured me that my decision to be home these last few days from both jobs was exactly what I needed. Thank u and safe travels! Also I’ve heard wonderful things about Nicaragua, along with it being cheaper, and I lived in Colombia and recommend it to anyone anytime. It’s incredible. ❤

  48. Selina says:

    This post has touched me so much! It’s like pure synchronicities that keep showing up in my life about leaving NYC and letting it all go. Any advise for someone who just bought a house in Queens, NY and has a hubby and three year old?! Everyday I wake up and something tells me it is all possible:)

  49. Pao says:

    Amazing! May all the energy of our universe bless your dreams!

  50. Lauren says:

    <3 Amazing. Exactly what I needed! Congratulations on taking the risk and your journey towards balance.

  51. Maria Macalintal says:

    what a story! yes, do what you can right now. I have a kid so unfortunately I cant just pack up and leave and go anywhere I want. that line that God laughs when You have a plan is so true.. I know somebody who never went on vacation and just kept on working and saving so he could retire early.. guess what happened to him? he had a heart attack and died…so much for retiring early… my advice is go and pursue what makes you happy.. regrets only happen when we didnt do what we really wanted… i’ve never regretted all the bad decisions I made in life, theres always a lesson in each of them..but thats the ones I didnt do, those are what keep me up at night

  52. Montserrat Trevino says:

    I’m so happy for you. I don’t think what you’re doing is crazy at all. The world is a beautiful place and it isn’t possible to see it or enjoy it if you never take time off and work a 9-5 job your whole life. I think it’s insane to only get 2 weeks off for vacation at a job with “good” benefits (well that’s the case in the U.S.) when we work 52 weeks a year. How the hell is that balanced?! How are you supposed to see the world or even half of it that way? I don’t think life should be so work centric. We don’t need more than half of what we own we just buy stuff to console ourselves from the deprivation of freedom we’re all feeling; and because we’ve been brain washed to think having more stuff means we’re more successful. I’m extremely glad you’re being brave and taking time off for yourself. I’ve been feeling the same way too I’m getting so tired of being in the city and constantly worrying about traffic (I live in L.A.) being in a place where every where you go it’s over crowded, you have to wait in a line for everything hence you’re constantly feeling rushed, everything is so expensive; and yet big cities are glorified like crazy in the media. Lately I’ve been thinking it’s a conspiracy to make us pay a ridiculous rent in a small inadequate place. Anyway I’m glad you did this enjoy your time while you can it’s a precious gift. Xoxo

  53. Kirsis Concepcion says:

    <3

    You are doing the right thing. I'm glad you are taking time to find yourself again. I think that as we grow/develop we have to continue to find ourselves again because no experience or trial is ever the same and its easy to get lost and caught up in that new moment. You are a strong soul and you will always return an improved new you.
    I'm working my way through my own dark experience trying to find my freedom. I know I don't want the 9-5 anymore and I know I don't care for my own apartment near downtown.. Its funny because the place is starting to fall apart and my boyfriend and I look at each other in agreement–its an affirmation. All the best to you and Nick!

    Love,

    Kirsis

  54. David Carrillo says:

    Well said .

    God bless you in all your endeavors.

  55. Stephanie says:

    You have inspired me in ways I can’t even begin to explain. Thank you from the bottom of my heart thank you

  56. Alyanna says:

    I couldn’t help but feel complete and utter joy while reading this post! To see so many of the goals & dreams you’ve shared with us on social media come to fruition, gives me so much hope for my own journey to complete happiness & optimal health. Your IG & blog are my saving grace!

    The journey you’ve begun in Costa Rica & in the rest of your travels is something my boyfriend & I have always dreamed of doing., but are currently financially landlocked in San Diego. Are there any tips/tricks you can share about how you came out being able to “just get up & GO,”?

    Thank you more than you’ll ever know!

  57. Shanel says:

    Ughhhhhhh!! My heart! Love you liv you inspire us all, im so proud of you for following your dreams and your path!

    P.s- dont worry, Gods got you! ❤
    -shaneezie

  58. I have watched your journey from the beginning and was absolutely thrilled to read this. I am so happy for you, proud to see you live FREELY, and excited for what’s to come. Even at your young age, you are a true inspiration to so many of us. Keep doing whatever your spirit tells you to do.

  59. Ciara says:

    ❤️❤️❤️

  60. R says:

    Beautiful. So glad to know you’re feeling better and have found better peace within. Finding peace and feeding my soul is something I am working on – and for the past four months my soul has been telling me to take a plunge 99% of people would call crazy – ditch my “9-5” and go gung-ho with my business, working with the necessary means to get by and survive with my husbands paycheck, until my business picks us back up. And it sounds crazy, but my soul, the vibes, the universe, and my intuition tell me it can be done. I hold back because I still hold onto the “scaredy cat” of struggling since I’m responsible for two small babes. For now I’ll work what I can to get what I want that’s best for me and family and pray that time is not sweet in its length to make it happen … because my soul calls out for this bad.

  61. Ella says:

    You are the only person I truly resonate with on Instagram and I stopped everything I was doing and read alll your article.

    At times you were narrating throughs I had every single time I big sign would come up in my life and then you are moving along with a wisdom I wish I had at that time. By all means our lives are different and as you say we cannot choose when to grow but your life shift really touched deep on a level it got buried with daily family and financial responsibilities.

    I think is time to again bring up those feellings of freedom and work on how I can rediscover a way to balance my life and my family life and if is really worth it living in a concrete city.

    Thank you from my heart, Olivia for your wisdom and your kind nature. Wish you to find what your soul is longing for 💕🙏🏻

    I will always follow your journey. Hugs and kisses from London Ella

  62. Rebekah Rottier says:

    That’s truly encouraging Olivia! Love the honesty, love how relatable you are, and love how you want to live young with passion. Thank you for sharing, it’s truly freeing and got me planning on doing my bucket list!

  63. Jessenia Melo says:

    Your story has a strong impact! I am glad that you speak on how we don’t have control, something I have to come to realization and deal with. I wish you well in your journey and you’re inspirational!

  64. Nico Franco says:

    Undoubtedly proud of you for exploring the world, your passions, and all that life has to offer 💯

    Your life reminds me of the beauty of & within everything, especially the beauty found only within myself!

    Hopefully we’ll party some day with organic herbs & liquors, love

    Until then, always wishing only the best

    With love,
    Nico

  65. Kendall says:

    I really enjoyed this post. The part about your apartment and you feeling like you didn’t belong there really gets to me. I’m having all of these realizations at once and its funny cause I’m also a sophomore in college. I guess its around these years when it hits you, lol

  66. Yvette says:

    I love following you and you’re living my dream so I will live vicariously through you for now. I continue to work on me and my own struggles everyday and thank God he is allowing me to do so in this temporary thing called life. Much love and respect for both of you, blessed be you in your journeys! !

  67. Cynthia Almanza says:

    Amazing and truly inspiring! I love how you expressed your thoughts and it’s sooo true we trap ourselves in our own minds sometimes. Keep doing your thing girl! ❤️✨

  68. Sarah says:

    You are so amazing and inspiring! the last part of what u wrote brought tears to my eyes!! I hope u never stop writing because you are truly gifted. I think you are so beautiful inside and out and it shows with every word you write. I am so glad u found happiness. God Bless you.

  69. Suzanne says:

    I feel you Olivia. I went through/am going through the same thing. I quit my corporate job in august because I couldn’t stand feeling like a 9-5 slave for one more day especially after waking up.
    I’ve been traveling since but find that I miss the convenience of the states so I’m heading back next month but who knows how long I’ll stay!
    I’m actually setting up a healthy living blog myself for fun and in efforts to truly be free.
    I wish you the best in your adventure <3

  70. Alyssa says:

    Olivia,
    This is so inspiring! I can’t begin to explain how much this resonates with me. I think it’s amazing that you have taken the opportunity to truly be free and give your soul what it’s been craving. One day I will do the same. My boyfriend’s name is Nick and he too likes to talk to the birdies! 😊

    I have started my own path of healing and to be honest – I didn’t even know where to start in the beginning! I just knew that SOMETHING was not right. I came across your blog and it’s been part of the foundation of my own path. I still have so much work to do but a lot of your posts have made that “light bulb” go off in my head and helped manifest new thoughts and ideas (Currently reading: Life-Changing Foods – Changing my diet a few years ago, was the start of it all!). I have been in the corporate world for about 12 years now and although I knew that it was not my lifelong dream from the start, it was easy and available at the time. I am approaching 30 now and have recently been doing some deep soul-digging! One thing I absolutely need to change is my job. As time goes on, it’s more apparent that I need to change this aspect of my life and turn it into something I love and WANT to work hard for – not something that is only benefiting me financially and creating a lot of bad energy and stress at the same time…. The stagnation is REAL.

    I wanted to share a sign with you from the other day. I was home, writing down ideas and jotting down potential plans for changing my career (I got a little overwhelmed and frustrated to be honest because it’s going to be such a HUGE change). After, I went to wash dishes and noticed a quarter in the sink…random? I turned the quarter over and it was an Indiana quarter with “crossroads of America” on the back of it. I just thought, well isn’t that fitting!!? I do feel like I am at a crossroad – I have finally hit that point of… I NEED a change. But enough rambling… I just wanted to take the time to say that you are a very inspiring and beautiful person! Keep going!
    ❤ Alyssa

  71. Mollyanne says:

    Yo Olivia I was just in Costa Rica in January as well! Such an eye opening trip that brought a lot of perspective back with me to the states. Everything is so lively … literally butterflies where flying everywhere, how couldn’t that be magical ?! I love hearing stories that help me to continue to follow my intuition even when others think I am whack and being “too careless” with my decisions. You have inspired me on many levels and I hope to be as far as you are when I am 23! So inspiring !! BTW have you had much luck finding decent organic products in CR and if so which part?

  72. Olivia, I haven’t read one of your blog posts in a while, but I’ve followed you for 3 and a half years and something in me told me to read this post today. So I did, out loud, and well, I fucking cried! It’s amazing how this is exactly what I’m going through right now (and have even been thinking about Costa Rica! Wtf?!) and here I am reading your post that sounds like a script straight from my brain at this very moment. I’m just now realizing how much YOU have been in the root system of so many of the changes I’ve made in the past few years and it looks like you may be intertwined in some of my future changes as well. Thank you for being a real, functioning, feeling human and sharing that with everyone. It really helped me today.

  73. Lizette says:

    That was truly inspiring. Thanks for always being so raw and genuine. You’re a constant inspiration.

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